Julie's Testimony

I was asked to write a testamony, however, God spoke to me a year or so ago when I was asked to speak on a t.v. program. I was to announce a testamony.

While seeking God I asked "God, help me write my testamony". God replied, "then let's think of your epitaph". I was like "that isn't very nice Lord...I have a life to live".

I heard God say to me "Julie, for one to have a testamony, one must "die"...and nothing in you has "died" yet". Whew....

I sought God in what He was saying to me.

So, on the air, I gave no testamony of the norm...what happened in my life "before Christ"...I talked about I had this crazy feeling that God was going to take me through a time of "dying" to myself. But, I had NO idea how to do that. Even though I loved, was giving, served the Lord..there still was a nagging pride, fear, pain, confusion sometimes. So, as I sought God, I knew I was in for it. But, what the heck....God will win and what do I have to lose other than my puky thoughts, feelings, fear, anger, confusion???

Well, as it was I went through 3-4 years of literal hell. Yes, I went to hell. I tried to hang on with "my might" until I lost the grip. God sent me on a spiral downward...but HIS HAND, never left mine. I went to hell and back. I was torn to shreds.

I know what it means to have gone through sifting, brokeness, and when you come "back" as Jesus told Simon, it isn't easy to tell people of what you went "through". Most people only see through eyes of man. But, when God brings us back...it will be for HIS GLORY and we will have something more powerful than before. Humility and LOVE. A love that will melt hearts and a humilty to keep us strong.

So, Julie's testamony? A lot of Julie has died....but I still walk on planet earth...so as long as I'm here....it will be "I die daily"...and ONLY HE LIVES. Amen?

My desire today is to continue to seek God's heart and watch daily for the enemy's tactics to try to trip me again. AND....to continue "LIVING IN THE ANSWER"

MY NAME IS JULIE AND I AM THE SIGNATURE OF GOD'S Mercy, Grace, LOVE upon my life